Had one of the most amazing weekends in a long time, I honestly feel so much better. :)

6am.
Why the fuck am I awake seriously, fuck.
I want to die.

I haven’t felt this Numb in a long time, is it sad that I love this feeling?

Feeling beautiful for once, and it feels good.

I feel numb, but not numb enough.

I feel awful.
My night was awful.

I’m over everything, seriously.

Sitting here already,
I’ve seen him for the first time in ages, just seeing him with out knowing he was coming made me freeze I’ve never been so excited nervous scared all at once my emotions went wild.

Although my mood went back to how if was, fucking shit.
I feel as though nothing can lift my mood now. I want to give up completely. I want to go home crawl into bed and never move..

No longer keen for tomorrow.

Ignoring the world always seems like the best thing to do.